Blessed

I have noticed that in situations like this, when I feel at my worst; selfish, exhausted, disgusting, sore, and a huge failure; are the times that bring out the best in those closest to me.

I have seen generosity and selflessness that I have never experienced before.

My mother has always been an incredible woman. She is who I aspire to be like. She is the kindest, sweetest, most generous person I have ever met. Well, this past month I have grown more and more impressed, and surprised by her selflessness.

Cricket has from her very first day had a very close relationship to Grandma (Gigi). She through all my health issues has spent lots of time with my Mom. My Mom, on many many occasions has dropped everything to come and take care of not only me, but Cricket after surgery or illness. I have always been able to count on her.

Well this situation takes the cake. My Mom prepared a room for Cricket, and has loved and raised her just like her own. She hasn't just taken her in and watched her, she has loved her, and cuddled her, and played with her. She has treated her like she was always been meant to be there. It has touched my heart, and has made me love my Mom on a deeper level. As a mother she knows the heartache that comes from not being able to take care of your child, and all of the many insane emotions that I am experiencing.

I can always count on her to be a listening ear, and give me a hug and comfort when I need it most. And I can't think of anyone more perfect to fill my void with Cricket while I am down. As hard as it is, (which honestly is the HARDEST thing I have ever gone through), I think it would be unbearable if Cricket weren't with my Mom.

Someday I hope I can be half as amazing as my Mom!