Laugh? Or Cry?

My Mom once told me you can either laugh or you can cry. Well I have done a lot of crying over the past few months, and I have decided it's time to laugh.

Let's get one thing straight right now: Bed rest? It sucks! It is cruel and inhumane, and it tests every ounce of patience one has about three hours in. It's difficult in every way. In my case even your bathroom privileges are on a schedule. You cannot cook for yourself, clean up your house even when it's falling apart around you. You can't do simple basic tasks that you had taken for granted before hand. One of the worst things for me, is I can't take care of my daughter. I can't lift her, I can't bathe her, and I can't chase her around the house. My husband and I made the decision two weeks ago to have Cricket go stay with Grandma and Papa for awhile, so that Little Man could stay in. Honestly, that has been the hardest thing I have EVER had to do! Luckily she loves them and has a really good relationship with them, but it breaks my heart to send my little one away.

Since my husband works full time and goes to school at nights, and Cricket is away I spend on average 16 hours alone EVERY day. It is horrid. It's not this glamorous business that we like to think it is. Napping when you want, eating what you want, watching what you want, doing what you want. Nope. Not a chance. It is incredibly boring and frustrating in about every way. Since you can't move, you have no appetite, which means you don't gain the weight that you need. You're entire body hurts, and you get these horrible headaches, and if you don't move enough you get sores, but if you move too much, you have horrible contractions. Taking a shower is a huge ordeal, and just about takes all the energy you have to stay upright until you can rinse your shampoo away. And daytime tv? Are you kidding me?!

As I said before I occasionally cheat (don't you judge me, this is hard!) and make my husband take me to a quick car ride, or make him take me when he picks up my prescriptions (I use the wheel chair, no worries concerned citizens). And I have never been so excited to have tests or Dr.s appts in my life, because I get to leave the house, and talk to someone, even if it's only for five minutes.

I have learned to make my life interesting, and entertain myself, cause let's face it, there isn't anyone else to do it right now. Hopefully it will entertain you as well :)