Cricket came down on Saturday to visit for the weekend. She went home with Papa and Grandma today. It was incredibly hard, and I spent most of the afternoon crying.
Cricket is going through her own little struggle right now... She has a dislocation problem in her limbs, which causes her a great deal of pain at times. It is hard to send your kid away, but when you add that to the mix, it about kills you. Luckily she is scheduled for surgery next month. Turns out she needs to have her birthmark biopsied for cancer as well. We are really hoping they can do it all the same day.
I never understood how hard it would be to let my child go. She is my entire world, and she is my bestest little friend. My Mom keeps telling me, that I need to focus on taking care of Little Man right now, and making sure he makes it here ok, but it makes me feel like I'm betraying her by sending her away.
This has been an emotional time for me, and I have felt like a failure in about every way possible. I often wish, and pray that I could have normal working parts. There are so many issues happening there, I can't keep track of them all.
I pray everyday for the strength to handle this, and the strength the keep a positive attitude, and stay happy. It's a constant battle, but I know in the end it will be worth it.
Tomorrow will be better :) I'm sure of it. Now only if I could get some sleep?
Tomorrow is always better :)
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