12 weeks

This week marks week 12 of full bedrest. Wow! It's crazy to think that it has been 3 months! My little girl has been gone most of it, and I still have longer to go!

But it's a huge hump that I have passed, so I just have to hang in there, and stay sane for the next 4 weeks til I'm off full bedrest, and the following 5 until the baby comes. Hopefully things will go well.

When talking to the dr, he said that if the bleeding continues, but I don't dilate, then I will probably be down for the long haul (the full 9 remaining weeks). But Hubs and I have been discussing things, and even if the bleeding stops, I will still be in labor and pain every time I get up, so I will most likely be down until he comes anyway. So I just have to remind myself that I have lasted this long, and 9 more weeks will be a piece of cake!

I keep hoping that by staying down my pain will minimize, and I will go back to when if I stayed down things were generally ok. Although it is much more painful to get up, the laying down has not been easy the past two weeks at all. I have basically been in constant pain no matter what. I about pass out every time I do get up, for the bathroom and such, but am not getting any relief while I am down either. My labor is getting worse when I am up, and takes longer to subside when I am down. I am just hoping I can stay at a point where I am home in my own bed and down, rather than at the hospital for 9 more weeks, hooked up to ivs, and monitors all day everyday.

I took a nap in my own bed today, and had forgotten how amazing it feels to be in a regular bed. I have been sleeping in the living room (and by sleeping I mean laying there in the dark begging for sleep), for about the last 2 months, so that Hubs can sleep a little each night, and I have to move less when I need to get up.

In other news, Hubs has 1 week of school left for this semester! I can't wait to have him home a little more, especially when the baby comes! His workload, and class-load will be greater in the fall, but I am hoping the summer will bring a nice break for our whole family!

Just trying to stay positive this week, and am hoping for no change in news at the drs. I have learned that no change in this circumstance is how we want things to be! As a general rule, change has been a very, very bad thing with this pregnancy!