Bittersweet

Tomorrow will mark my 5th day in the hospital. It has been a long stay... but I cannot imagine if I were home for this whole ordeal.

Little man is doing well now. The first day he was on the CPAP machine so he could breath, then he started having issues maintaining a good core temp.

I was having a hard time controlling my bleeding for a few days, and we have been having issues with keeping my pain levels down. Since I was on bedrest, and in labor for so long I lost a lot of muscle tone. The dr also had to cut out several inches deep, and several inches wide of scar tissue and adhesions during my c-section. The dr and nurses all told me that this will be a long recovery. Could be close to twice the recovery as my previous c-section. I have always had a problem with excess bleeding, and with the red hair it adds a whole extra set of specialness. Red heads have a tendency to heal slower, bleed more, and have higher scaring rates.

Luckily my Mom will be spending a week helping me out. Bless her heart!

My sweet Little Man has been my saving grace. He is a big cuddler, and senses when I need him for comfort. I have enjoyed every second with him, and holding him brings me back to life, and relaxes my soul. He helps remind me that all of the pain, and lack of sleep is worth it, for a second with him.

I love him so much. He brings such a joy and peace to my soul. I cannot remember life without him in it.

Here's hoping that tomorrow goes well for all of us!