Are we there yet?

The past few days as I mentioned previously have been pretty rough.

Terrible, no good, very bad days.

The one good thing that happened was Hubs got to feel Little Mans head and Bum. He really likes to poke them both out, and nestle up in my rib cage and by my ribs. Not my favorite position, but it's neat for Daddy to see what is going on.

Several times (while walking to my scheduled bathroom breaks)I was pretty sure that he was going to kick and push his way out. So much pain and pressure. All you mommies out there probably remember that feeling quite well.

Since this is a blog about my adventures in bedrest, I'll give a little detail of some of the problems we have had this week. If you don't want to hear (or read rather) about it, kindly move onto the next post :)

Because of the problems that we have been having with the placenta this time around, Placenta Praevia (Placenta is completely covering up the cervix, causing bleeding, and preventing natural childbirth), and a Placental Abruption (in layman's terms, a tear in the placenta, which can cause the placenta to peel away from the uterine wall); we have been trying to keep bleeding from starting, and keep the placenta out of stress as much as we can. Unfortunately, with Little Man's growth and movement, the abruption has gotten worse, and caused some bleeding. It could be much worse bleeding at this point, and the dr told me he was surprised it hasn't happened before now, given both problems in utero. But if I don't stay down, there could be bigger issues. If the placenta detaches before it's time for Little Man to come, there is obviously going to be some problems. If my bleeding get worse, then I will have to be hospitalized until Little Man is ready to come. Which would be beyond miserable! So we are doing our best to avoid it! The dr hopes that when Little gets bigger and starts running out of room, since his movement will slow and maybe the placenta will stop peeling away. Hopefully anyway. Another part of the problem is the tests I have to have done every other week to determine if I am secreting the labor hormone, cannot be done while I am bleeding because it messes up the results. Besides all the added ultrasounds, tests and Drs appts I will have now to make sure he stays in as long as possible.

Until the bleeding stops (of it does) I am on a very strict bedrest, which includes only being able to lay on my left side, and no sitting up. Which is next to impossible, so when I get a pinched nerve or sore in my back I sit up for a few mins, and Hubs rubs my back. But never fear, I am doing my best to follow orders to the letter, and keep this baby in. Problem is making my body cooperate!

Accompanied with all of this is incredible pain (worse than before), and more labor. Thankfully he is growing well, and moving tons, but since I carry so far back, I feel every movement, and can barely breath (which the laying down business does not help!). And although I do not look large, there is a lot happening inside, even if you can't see it from the outside. Between the pain, and being so uncomfortable, I am quite literally ready to throw in the towel. I told hubs today that I am really done. Trust that I know things will be worth it when he is here, and I won't regret a moment of it. But let's be honest, this is not a fun ride. I do not have a moment in the day where I am not in excruciating pain. In fact Hubs and I have been referring to the hospitals 1-10 pain scale so he knows where I am at lol. (Say 8! Say 8!)




I feel like a child in the car asking their parents every five mins if we're there yet?